Ultimately, she returned to hair and makeup and talked to her supervisor about her pain. “I was, like, crying in my trailer. I’m like, ‘I don’t want to do this. It feels dirty. It feels like they’re trying to sex everything up,'” the mom of 2 explained.
Sophia stated she concurred, that it seemed like the authors “turned it up to a 10 out of nowhere.”
“I seemed like a woman of the street. It was the very first minute that I was, like, ‘I’m kissing somebody for cash. I’m making money to do this, like, performative [thing]’,” Hilarie described. “There’s a morality thing where you’re like, ‘Am I a sex worker in a way? Is this OnlyFans in 2003?'”
Hilarie summoned up the nerve to go back on set after her hair stylists and makeup artists conjectured of grapefruit vodka with her, and she remembered on the podcast how this minute made her understand she wasn’t alone. “All the women in the trailer got together and they’re like, ‘You may feel like you’re in this all by yourself, but we are here. We are standing right behind the monitor. Cheers to you being a badass, kiddo,'” Hilarie shared. “It was such a moment of sisterhood that really solidified my friendships behind the camera, because I knew that we were going to continue to do stuff that felt weird.”
