“After I got out of the last treatment center, I knew what made me happy,” Selena discusses, “and it was connection.”
But, per her physician’s orders, Selena’s prepared humanitarian see to Kenya to see the schools she assisted raise cash to construct was postponed a number of years due to her 2017 kidney transplant. Once she’s lastly apple to make the journey in 2019, she swore to check out quarterly
“The truth is I’ve never felt good enough,” Selena confessed. “Even when I’m on stage in front of a crowd, I’ll always find the one person who doesn’t like me and I believe them, I want to believe in myself. The people I’ve met here in Kenya are so giving, I just want to feel like I deserve to be here with them.”
During her time in Maasai Mara, Selena bonds with the trainees, discussing love, aspiration and, in an especially psychological discussion with one lady, self-destructive ideation.
After her time in Kenya, Selena takes a trip straight to London and Paris to promote her music, however she has a hard time to adapt to her life as a star. “It just seems like such a waste of time,” she stated. “What am I doing right now?”
Later acknowledging that “part of my heart is still in Kenya,” Selena confessed, “I felt guilty being there sometimes. I hate that, I feel like I went and filmed and I experienced, but it’s just so hard because I feel so selfish. Do I feel great? Yes, and do I feel like I left an impact? Yes, but do I feel like I’ve done enough? No.”
“Talking to someone about mental health in Kenya, that’s beautiful,” she continued. “I don’t know if I felt like, ‘Oh, I did it and I’m such a great person.’ No, it’s just the beginning for me.”
