Prior to the treatment program, the Tangled star had actually been “running to lots of other things, whether it was sex or drugs or booze” to numb himself “from the pain that I was running away from most of my life,” he stated on the podcast.
“The irony is that booze can give you this temporary relief, but then the next day amplifies that anxiety tenfold,” he stated. “So, then you’re running back to get more and it just becomes this vicious cycle.”
Reflecting on the root of his battles, he stated everything started throughout his youth.
“The majority of my life, I grew up in a household where my stepfather was a perfectionist on the highest of levels, his bar was so high, was impossible to reach, and then a mother who was a borderline personality,” he stated. “So, she didn’t have an impossibly high bar. She had an impossible target because it kept moving.”
As Zachary aged, he discovered himself fighting with his own understanding of his profession, including, “I feel like I’m a bit on the outside looking in. I’ve never really felt like I am a part of whatever the cool kid group is.”
Now, he’s welcoming prayer and meditation as he continues to move on. His complete podcast episode will be readily available for listen on June 28.
